Perhaps the easiest and simplest way to love, is to love yourself.
Things seems to be changing a little recently. Picking up? Abit too late somehow. There are several reasons why I’ve decided to put a full stop here. For those whom are close to me, will know some of the main reasons?
Leaving e memories behind is the main reason why this full stop came alittle sudden. I told him, I will tell him my last day. However, I pondered now whether to just tell him on the last day, or give buffer to meet.
Perhaps, not meeting will be the choice alot of ppl out there will advise me? :) Not meeting, will prevent him from seeing the tears in my eyes. I am glad I know him, I am glad he once brought me joy n laughter. I am glad he once showed me reasons why I fall for him. I am glad and thankful for him being jealous and it proves he cares about me. But all these need a full stop.
Opportunities dont come knocking on my door so easily. However, it just happened. I should respect fate. I will mark these 2 years in my heart, lock it in, and rest it there.
Although I very much hope that he can let go, and we can be friends, but what I actually want, is more than just a normal friend. A soulmate. But I know it’s not possible.
The sky’s my limit. My aim to reach. I will look upon the sky, and walk myself up. May God guide me through and lead me on. “Pray”
It’s the 2nd week of Sep. This month is an exciting month. Going to discuss matters with the sisters, going to fly kite, going to….. etc etc… Lots!
He hasnt been logging on the msn, his blog was deleted? Erm… What does it mean?
Maybe it should be good this way.
I’ve dreamt of us, of how we used to be… But evrything’s good to be left silent, and remembered for memories. I’ve to remind myself. To move on. Looking at my new house every morning, hoping to see it built higher and higher, painting with colours…. Is what I am looking fwd to.
Thinking of what I should do for my future, thinking of how to have a better life and so to provide for my family. That’s my resolution for 2011.
Finally, Friday’s here! Omg, I’ve been sneezing since morning! Go go, flu bug, I wana enjoy today~
Sometimes, it’s best to remain silent, n keep numb about things. Not everything requires action :)
Just like yesterday. I saw him @ pantry, I believed he had saw me too, through the reflection from the vending machine. However, I faced my back to him, continued washing my hands.
I can sense, somehow, he’s looking @ me. Or maybe he wasnt? Does that matter? He continued to logged on to msn after that. I ignored him. Didnt msg him a word.
This shall be the way baby!
Time flies. It’s the 1st day of Sep 2010 today! You bet I am overly excited about it.
4 more months to end this hectic year. Everything seems to be evolving around me. I just wished to get out of this mess soon!
I am counting down to my overseas trip, my big day, as well as the day I am getting my own lovee nest, and build it from scratch, with the most important person of my life. 1 year? 1.5years more? Ohh…god, please dont let me wait too long.
The other guy in my life, he should be forgotten and let go. Since last week, we’ve argued and quarelled over a small matter! So small, I dont even treat it as a matter in fact. What is he trying to do? I simply dont understand. Just 1 thought : “He hasnt let go”. Not easy though, I understand. But why just cannot let go?
I’ve used to read through his blog, trying to update myself on his happenings. Wishing him well, was my initial thoughts. But reading on, gets me no where.
Living life good, he’s not letting me live my life good. I wont let him ruin my precious little life. I’ve got my loved ones, my family, my friends…. all that cared about me. Always reminding me to hate him and let go.
If given a choice, I would just go. But, I am waiting, waiting for the right time. Once that time is up, I’ll bid goodbye. And take care. To him.
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